It's the difference between being kind of normal and wanting to rip everyone's head off.
Kinda like when I'm roughing housing with Shadow.
Grrrrrr...I ain't playin' with you, Shadow. I'm trying to rip your lips off. |
Remember, steroids can cause mood swings (see previous post on the joys of steroids). If you take a lot of steroids, you can turn into a BULLY. And when you cut back, you can turn into a BULLY. Throw in a full moon, and you'll have a howling good time (sorry, that's a little dog/werewolf joke).
Here's the problem; once you've taken steroids for a long time, your body gets habituated to them. Your adrenal glands don't produce as much natural steroid while taking steroid pills, and your body gets used to this state of affairs. Withdrawing from steroids slowly is a way to "trick" the adrenal glands into doing their job again. The trick's really on the body: while waiting for the adrenal glands to wake up and go back to work, mom feels very bad...crummy, poorly, rotten, like she has the flu all the time... and that's just the physical part.
The emotional and mental part is harder. She's prone to crying for no reason and seems to have very little control of her emotions. She's also temperamental and is easily overwhelmed by the littlest thing. I mean little...like picking up a pillow to make the bed this morning, hurt. So she cried...not so much from pain, but from frustration and steroid withdrawal. Her printer stopped working, so she yelled at it, uttered a few curse words (unfortunately not under her breath) and burst into tears.
And worst of all, when her mom came in, (that's Mom Z), little mom went nuts...crying and babbling incoherently about "How overwhelming it all is". There's too much to do...and not enough people to do it all. The campaign is working flat out and still, it seems like it's not enough. It's too hard and everyone just has to stop...how long will it all take? And let's not even start on Workman's Comp.
Boy, she said some harsh things and was aghast to hear those things come out of her mouth - she's usually optimistic and pretty cheerful, but poor Mom Z really took some abuse from her today. Not all of it can be related to steroid withdrawal - there's a lot of stress in a campaign to raise funds, but it seems that the lack of that one little bitty mg does make a BIG difference. It removes the ability to control your emotions and stop yourself from saying some very hurtful things.
I'd offer to share my bone with her, but in her current mood, I'm afraid she'd rip off my lips, and I need my lips.
I wouldn't be nearly as cute in this photo if I had no lips.
I think I'll just curl up in her pillows and wait for her to come and cuddle up with me. Tomorrow will be better. It certainly couldn't be worse.
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